Monday, August 25
omg ok i realised how long has it been since i've blogged. the papers were like shit.. i tink i died for every single paper except, amazingly, chinese.
but today has totally been a bad day. where are alvin and the chipmunks wen i need them? i know i feel lousy cuz today either i've been veri crazy or very low.. it's like a 100cosx graph or sth liddat.. super HIGH!! thn super low.. lols.. i'm always like that wen i feel damn lousy and like going to die..
why must u do this to me la.. u dunno how torturing it is.. it's basically just physically emotionally and realistically tormenting la.. i think i'm like going CRAZY oredi.. u know about patrick.. i realise i've seriously been talking to him too often.. it's like i'm always talking to him in my brain.. it'll be like "aiya patrick ahh.. i tell u ahh" or "patrick!! how ahh?!" omg.. i realli gotta stop it as soon as i can.. c'mon germaine! he's not real!! it's just a figment of ur imagination!!! oh well i think the problem with me is that i have no self actualization.. i mean.. i think i'm like living for the sake of living.. even in primary sch i was SOMETHING. ok.. i know how irritating issit for the people around me to keep on hearing me talking about my primary sch.. ohwell bear with me people!! i sorta like dun have a goal.. ok.. maybe alot of people will sae that too.. but i realise that everything i'm doing now is because i know there's the something that i'll get in return.. and i realli mean EVERYTHING. seriously. i thought about it like last night(haha i know i got alot of time) and nothing.. NOTHING!! that i do cause i feel like doing it... ok.. using the obs phrase, "don't stay in ur comfort zone." i think i realli am u know!! it's like.. i never dare to try something new, meet new people.. and when i finally wanna do SOMETHING, my mom's like totally against it.. ok.. i understand that it's "for my own good" but i wanna do something risky! something in my life that i made a choice for.. i dun care if i regret it anot. at least it makes me look forward to something everydae. at least i wun leave my life regretting about not doing anything DIFFERENT. today, i was humming "Never Had a Dream Come True" by SClub7, the chourus, over and over again.. eric was sitting beside me during chinese lesson.. and he was like "So....... u never had a dream come true?" and u know what eric? now i can answer you. yes. cuz i never even dare to dream.
wow.
hahaha what a not-like-me post..
ohwell..
it'll be the last that u ever see of this kind of posts..
hahaha anyway..
i cant believe it..
but i'm mugging for maths oredi!!
hahaha
ok la cuz it's on wednesday..
aniway, i've already made another goal..
"I'll try my best to finish all the homework that I can do at home."
well.. that's a starting for someone who ones to become a guaikia mugger LOLS.
and i must REALLY stop watching youtube..
u noe the jordin sparks?
the american idol 2007 woman...
i totally dint now abt her until just now..
HER VOICE IS OMG..
sixteen years old!!!
NICE ONE MAN..
Z.z
ok i swear i'll stop chong2 bai4ing those no standard the stars and start going for those with standard instead.. of course.. with the exception of shuai and sexy people :P
ok i noe i've no right to be biased like that since i'm... ohwell.. but HA!
laughed at 10:41:00 PM