Saturday, April 25
ohno..
exams.
i realise i really dun really know much about physics..
i practically cant do ANY of the test papers!
shitshitshitshit and more shit.
what kind of stupid shit is this you tell me.
Z.z
i need sihan!!!
anw,
i really really admire the people sho designed/discovered tshirt bra.
they're the best pieces of cloth ever created.
which explains the high price.
and anw,
the PROPOSED itinery for australia has come out.
quite fun la i think.
hope they stick to it.
we're going on SQ leh!
haha happy happy happy..
but the people are abit weird so shant comment anything about it.
wish me goodluck that somehow i wun feel abit out on the trip
since my friends are quite close to my friends.
p.s. hazel says she's going down to brisbane to meet us!
yay!.
anw i was thinking for quite awhile while bathing just now, and come up with a few analogies.
1. people are always not happy with what they have.
i mean like ask anyone and noone will be happy with his/her life.
not happy means that they have something that they would want to be changed.
in general,
people who think that there's nothing that happens in their life wants something to happen.
and when something REALLY bad happens they wish they've never wished for anything at all.
if something good happens, it wun be enough.
if nothing happens after awhile these people will just go around making something happen on their own.
(obviously studying hard and working is something that everyone must do because it is everyone's resposibility)
people who have something really big happening with their life(e.g. cancer) would rather nothing happen at all.
but this is what humans are.
we can try to change our mindsets or tell people we dun think that way but deep deep down inside there is still a part of it.
i mean who doesnt have evil thoughts?
it's how you put it that matters.
those people insist that they don't and are different from normal humans are the most evil and irritating ones.
e.g. i really hate people who say they dislike the feeling of people liking them, especially when they obviously do. because this is how humans work. no matter what if someone likes you there's sure to be a smug feeling deep deep in you. it's how you counter your feeling or deal with the person that changes everything.
those people that seem the most innocent on the outside may actually be the evillest on the inside (well, there is also a possibility that they are controlling their evil thoughts but those people are hard to find.)
like what bryan tan said in lesson the other day.
he said sth like there are no forever friends but there are forever motives, or sth like that.
it's was referring to the relationship between countries
but i think it means alot literally as well.
ok the quote is abit extreme, because i trust this world and i still believe there is love and i will find many many true, good and laughing friends throughout my life.
i can and i must haha.
2. i think the weakest point in everyone is love.
i know that it's abit coldhearted
but if someone had no love, he or she probably would be able to survive the best in ANYTHING.
for example, someone with no heart to love, will be able to put his or her empty heart into anything.
be it work or school or even like the people in ancient china who learn martial arts.
sadly this would not be what we were built to be, because revenge is also a form of love, and vice versa.
but, love is also what makes life meaningful.
without love there will be no laughter, no happiness, no-thing.
i cant imagine what would be a whole life with no happiness lols.
it's the strongest feeling that anyone can ever have.
you may not see it, may not feel it.
that's the extent of it's strength.
i know all this sounds mushy and all.
it is the only feeling that cannot be expressed in words.
this is why you can only describe the side effects of love, but you don't exactly describe what is love itself.
it's irritating cause it affects your life in many many ways:
-it is what that keeps you awake thinking every night.
-it makes you hate.
-it irritates you with what to buy for the people you love on their birthday
-you dont feel right if you dun have anyone to love.(which actually explains why some people are so desperate)
-you have a sudden urge to hug.
-you're afraid that you'll fall into it's trap too deep.
-sometimes you wish that the time would stop now and then, sometimes you wish time would go back.
-you get hurt (emotionally and physically.)
-your life suddenly feels meaningless and not worth living when someone you love is literally not there anymore.
this is why this society we're living in sucks.
love become so superficial sometimes.
sometimes u dno if it's real or fake.
you dun trust in it, u dun want to try it.
it's because of those devious freaks that disfigure love that sometimes when you try to look for it, you cant find it anymore.
people are afraid to show love.
all kinds of love.
family love
couple love
and friends love.
of course family love and couple love are easier to define
the worst is friend love.
this means really liking that person as a FRIEND.
i dun understand why some people dun understand that true friendship can exist between the opposite sex.
some people just make friends of the opposite side because he/she is a possibility to be a boyfriend/girlfriend.
disgusting actually.
then there are some people who think that the statement "friends can become lovers." is true.
this spoils many true friendships.
but then again friends are also very troublesome:
sometimes u dno which friend to love.
sometimes u love a friend yet u dno how to express yourself.
sometimes u love a friend so much it becomes hate
sometimes u love a friend but u cannot show it.
(in the context of opposite sex friends, if u show too much love either tongues will wag or your friend will have this stupid misconception like the other idiots)
nevertheless,
true love still stands strong and there are many people who have it.
it is not perfect of course, but love nevertheless.
(hopefully we can eradicate all those artificial love and the world will be a better place)
but then again,
artificial or not,
i have to admit that without love,
we wont be able to lead a normal life.
all of us will start loving non-living things hahaha..
anw, i'm gna make a list of people who have been more involved in my life this week.
( in alphabetical order.)
1.amelia
2.cailing (i know it doesnt really make sense because we dun really talk much nowadays but it's this feeling that i have)
3.merwyn
4.my mom
5.zhengyang
this list doesnt include 3C people because currently the only things involved in my life during this lessons this week are stuffs like maths, physics, chemistry, SS, chinese, LA, geog..etc. enough to make my brain explode already.
laughed at 10:06:00 PM