Tuesday, January 19
besides, turning into a boring person..
i think i'm secretly turning into an eeeevil person..
it's like eating me from inside out..
evil and disturbing thoughts just keep floating to my head nowadays..
i wonder if i was originally born evil hmmm..
ohmanz..
ok i suddenly realised that i keep on using manz alot today..
it's just today lor..
it's all like ohmanz, or like yo manz or even YOZ manz..
omg..
it's just so Rissy..
oh! did i tell u that i used to think that Ris was spelt as Reece?
i thought she created her slang english name from an origin of Greece or whatever HAHA
and ohya,
i seriously think,
that a friendship must be kept in condition by at least 2 people..
not some one-sided thing..
unfortunately for this supposedly good friend of mine,
(my friend shall just be a her for now..)
all her friends all just come naturally to her..
this is probably cus of her so-called(quoted from my dear educator) 'charisma'..
it's just so pathetic cus she will never have good friends..
who can tolerate a friend that u always have to run to?
she thinks that he/she knows what's the meaning of being a good friend and is actually one,
when she is actually lying to herself..
she's just taking everyone for granted..
she also doesnt know how to maintain a true friendship cus it's always her friends who are doing the maintaining..
those people who cant stand it(like me) just quarrel with her at times and then apologise aft that even though it's not their fault(unlike me)..
i just get sick in the stomach when i see that happen
i've tried very hard to think in another way..
like she's actually a very nice friend who hasnt shown her true colours yet..
but it has alr been this long..
i've gotten tired of all the tolerating and everything..
well,
i guess i'll just become her stepping stone in life..
since now she has gotten over all her confusion and is on track alr..
but seriously i've gotta say,
i'm definitely one of her biggest stepping stones in life so far..
goodluck my friend/used-to-be-good friend..
may i not meet a person like u ever again..
it's not that u were not a good person to be with,
or i dint enjoy the times we had together..
it's just that it's so hard to handle..
laughed at 10:10:00 PM