Tuesday, February 16
and just like that,
the chinese new year holiday is gone..
i started to feel the waves of depression when i woke up this morning..
it was like..
"24 hrs later, i'll be in sch.."
and now,
it's alr at night..
well the visiting has been quite ok i must said..
but i ate ALOT more than last year..
so i'm feeling quite guilty abt it..
SO!
i ran 4rounds worth of distance tdy morning
heh
and well, i spent one whole day of my time with my 'special' friend i was talking about last week..
i think it'll be the last time i'll be socializing with her..
this yr is an impt yr and an even more impt year the next,
i dun have the energy or the time to bother about her..
shall just let her be haha
and i've been pondering about this for the past few days:
my portfolio SUCKS!
i dun have any positions,
i dint participate in any competitions,
and i dint have any exchange programmes!
AHHHH
well, for the postitions, i just dint get the leadership positions.. and the positions i got were not recognised officially..
and i dun really excel in any subjects so naturally i guess i wun be sent to any competitions..
so when i wanted to participate in a competition that dint need any speciality in a particular subject, the competition closed out from normal students!
and the korean girl i brought ard sch last yr..
well, aft the xchange i realised that i wasnt in the programme aft all..
(long story)
ohman what am i going to do!!
shit i shld really start looking out for competitions to participate in..
since there isnt the leadership position thingy and my australian xchange programme got cancelled..
:(!!!
i was really looking forward to it..
the sad thing is the rv has just been sending the same bunch of ppl over and over agn to different competitions..
i know it's probably more convenient cus they've received training alr and whatever..
but then the rest of the student body find themselves trapped in a vicious cycle(copied from geog notes) of non-improvement(no, not proverty hee)..
then it's just really really difficult to do anything to ur portfolio anw..
the teachers always tell us to participate in competitions that IF we win, will help with our portfolio..
but the thing is, there're the kids whom the teachers have sent for competitions and competitions and received so much training that we find it impossible to actually win something..
and aiya u know rv ppl..
we're seriously just scared to lose..
ok so i gotta start standing up for my portfolio and doing stuffs..
ohshit man..
i was supposed to blog about something impt but i forgot..
i think it's supposed to be for amelia HAHA
totally hate it when this kind of thing happens but ohwell..
haha i shall tell u when i rmb!!XD
laughed at 11:53:00 PM