Saturday, June 19
no matter what,
i must seriously persuade myself that,
THERE'S ONLY ONE WEEK OF HOLIDAYS LEFT!!
nth has really happened to me this holiday.
due to my 1 and a half wk of lying in bed trying to "get well soon",
the whole month of june is totally screwed.
okay, i think my recent addiction to 2pm also sorta screwed my study plan..
i like 2pm!
but dbsk is still number one in my heart.
i dno how i do it, but everytime even when i see DBS advertisments on television,
i still get excited in the stomach cus it sounds like dbsk HAHA
note: i stay at home so often i dont even walk past DBS banks!
Z.z
went to junwei's house on friday.
PLAYED MAHJIONG AND ROCKBAND!
hadnt had so much fun in ages..
but it wasnt that relaxing cus the maclaurin's series was stuck in my head all the time,
that i only know how to do the first part of almost every type of that question only..
i just simply cannot wait for all of this to be over,
and i can go crazy FOR AWHILE.
random rant:
the problem with people like me is that i'm not allowed to be unhappy.
for some reason or another, i have to always be smiling or funny.
i cant remember how many times is had to put on a skin and talk to people.
maybe it's cause i have this 'little' fear that if i stopped talking and making people laugh, everyone would leave me.
i used to tell myself that i'm just feeling like that cus i'm stressed or cus it was the time of the month and it will go away sooner or later.
but i think even if i dint have any stress or PMS it would change nothing.
i guess i used to do other things to make me feel better or happier, but now those things just make me feel worse.
in conclusion, the above is disgustingly emo.
hahahaha and the standard of that conclusion is the reason why i SUCK at gp muahaha
laughed at 10:23:00 PM