Thursday, November 18
ytd was soooooo freaking tiring.
spent one whole freaking day in town..
although i dint spend much time walking and shopping cus i'm NOT REALLY that type of girl,
it was just really tired to be out the whole day!
met weishan and zirui(for awhile) and i bought a few clothes with courtesy of my mom! :D
and i managed to eat that snow ice thingy at scape! omg happy much!!
tdy was like a full day of choir.
i'm just damn shagged once agn.
i think i'm turning old.
zirui says i'm "too bee-zeh alr".
but somehow having sth to do keeps me on my feet and my life doesnt feel that useless..
omg am i turning into some workaholic freak?!
lucky tdy dint have gp tuition.
if not i think i'll die.
but it's like a double whammy next wk.
and the homework she gave us is OHMYGOD. and i havent freaking finished one yet!!!
they are the following:
1. first 10 weeks of 1100 words
2. a freaking essay
3. research qns
4. summary and vocab words of the first 100 pages of a vv chim globalisation book!
it's like whatthehell right!!
but i believe that it'll help la..
i was reading my last blogpost.
and i realised how into solitude i was.
i think many ppl are afraid of being alone or going out alone.
i know that everytime i see someone watching a movie alone, i'll think "what a loser!"
yet i've always wanted to do that.
because i cant find a valid reason why must u be accompanied!
but am i pro-solitude because i think that it's not necessary to be with someone all the time,
or is it because that i am so loser that i just pull myself into solitude?
i have no idea.
it is an emotional sturggle.
i mean,
which person who plays solitaire(like the name doesnt say it all) and minesweeper to destress isnt a loser?!
well! that's me!
aiya whatever.
not like it really matters..
and i dno if i shld go to the JYP auditions!!
let me list to u the different reasons why i shld and why i shld not.
WHY I SHOULD:
1. it can like gauge how good am i.
2. good to train my confidence and stage presence.
3. everyone all advices that i shld go and try
4. the prospects of becoming a JYP artiste are really quite tempting.
5. IT'S JYP!!
WHY I SHOULDNT
1. i dont think i'll get in.
2. even if i do, if the contract requires me to go to korea immediately, i wont give up my alvls for it.
3. if i dont get in, even tho i'll get all the 'experience' and 'memories', it'll be a waste of time!! i'm serial number 899 leh!!!!! DO U KNOW HOW MANY PPL THAT IS?!
4. i cannot decide on what song to sing! 2different tears? 担心? or Mercy/Warwick Avenue?!
5. if i dont go, i can stay at home to rest. but the chance is so rare!!
and i'm moving house in mid-december!
HOUSE WARMING! :D
laughed at 11:51:00 PM