Sunday, September 4
ahh. i've decided that it wld be impossible to jam. truely impossible. because i'm just not meant to. but i so wna sing in a laxlax pub!! omg that wld be epicly cool in all proportions! but firstly, i'll probably not get the job, my mum will definitely not allow it, and it'll probably kill my already close to dead choir voice! so that strike 3 and i'm OUT.
reactivated by fb for awhile this wkend... totally remember why i deactivated in the first place. speaking of social networking sites, i sometimes think that if i were a "my friend" or "follower" on fb or twitter, i'd delete and unfollow myself! ohgod i look at my plsts. i think it's so lame that it's irritating. it's not even funny-lame. it's more like wdv-lame or even loser-lame. aiya heck to it alr la.
and okay went to Daimaru last night. omg dinner at 8pm plus creme crepe for desert. My calories cannot overshoot more than this alr. well i twitted abt nonsense like this also. (thus u can see how pointless are my tweets) but sometimes it's embarassing to talk about such stuffs openly. it's so weird that i actually think abt deleting all my guy friends or followers. omg I SHLD JUST HAVE AN ULU ACCT! the name will be like Jane Tan or sth like that.
so my mum made suchi today (idc if it's cus she's just my mum, but i think that hers is DA BEST.) and as we were walking out of meidya, or whatever that japanese supermkt is called ytd, she realised she dint buy the sausages!! so the whole family went to sit at macs and she went back to geddit. omg she took 30minutes!!! i dno abt other people, but it's like my mum's speciality. she's the woman when u're talking abt going to pick up something, and taking the WHOLE day! so the rest if us were making jokes about it, and i made a snide remark that she was probably HARVESTING THE SAUSAGES FRESH. it has weird connotations if u get what i mean.... but as usual nobody understood and my dad just pretended that he didnt! omg he just cant be matured about things like that.
ahwell. so i met the Hundred Acres of Wood (or wdv) gang. aiya it's just the pooh bear and friends la haha. i call them that cus they can get so boring sometimes -.- o.o =.= z.Z and i'm Christopher Robin cus i'm never, or rarely there HAHA. anw i was thinking... Thankgod i forced myself to leave them ohysically and emotionally before all of this. ahh it's quite hard to reiterate the emotional struggle. it applies even more to my other relationships. as @gnilac retweeted @nayuiq, something like leaving someone because u know that they will go on just fine without you anyway. i suspect it's another part of human nature. you only want to be where you're needed.
ahh spent too much time doing rubbish this wkend. nth constructive accomplished. as usual my family spent more than the time required when they go out. it's so frustrating cus they've made sacrifices already, and i know that i have no right to impose my sense of urgency onto them.
and i bring my econs notes out but i think it's close to impossible to digest! oh.my.god. i have to learn to make myself love econs.... like now!!
they say when life gives u lemons, you make lemonade. well, i say u just throw it back at them IN THEIR FACE and grow your own fruits! (i'll probably grow durians cus this whole idea is "figuratively speaking" so i'll be able to taste the marbleless goodness and not worry abt falling sick or getting fat at all :D) i'm saying this cus i'm still troubled with what i wna do with my life! it's so FRUSTRATING (pulls hair out) cus everytime i find sth i wna do, it's not feasible!!! ugh.
watched so many Faast and Furiouses during the wkend. ohmygod i'm ttly going gaga ramama oolala over the Asian in thr! i think he's japanese and if i'm not wrong his name is Han. ohhhhhmaaaaaaiiiiiiiigaaawwwwddddd. i really dno how to explain this but he exudes this charm that i am really attracted to! i hate it when i have no control over myself. it's not a good sign and sight. sai.... but anw most importantly, HE'S OLLLLLDDD!! PLUS PLUS PLUS PLUS PLUS POINTS!!!! :D
laughed at 8:17:00 AM