Friday, November 16
It's going to be 4am and i'm watching youtube videos.
Just came back from supper. omg i have been too happeningz for my own good. before supper i was playing tetris battle, then before that i went out in zirui's car with the gang. should have just settled my supper then. now i feel so freaking guilty. guilt and a stomachache is not exactly the best combination to go to bed. omg the guilt is really settling in now :( then before that it was another awesome sports session and then even before that, i had my last lesson of ethics.
well speaking of the last lesson of ethics. well, the teacher is really nice, but everyone was getting all sentimental about the last lesson hahhah. like bringing polaroids and stuffs. i think they just wanted to like remember their tablemates more than the teacher lols. but idk why i wasnt as excited about the last lesson as compared to them. nehh i got used to the fact that people dont stay for long. they never do. so if u dont put anything in it's better.
i think i need to watch some rene brown again HAHAH
anw after exams maybe i'll actually start doing some covers. people like keep showing me videos of other people's covers. well if i manage to download good apps on my ipad to cut paste edit songs then maybe i will :)
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haha why am i thinking so far when the exams are just round the corner? dont know what's with my un-kanjiongness. it's quite funny. i think have too much fun, like take going out in zirui's car last night for example. after that then i really think about it... i actually never really have alot of fun lei. cos i cannot think of anymore frequent occurences of going out. then i study but i like not kanjiong leh. i got study efficiently and focusedly but i not kanjiong!!!! maybe cos up until now i'm still studying all the stuffs i like. and i havent really gotten around to memorising those stuffs yet. ok must remember to study and memorise at the same time.
i have too many things i want to blog about but then i keep forgetting. all the things that come into my mind are those non-commercialised things.
sigh. sleep so late tmr cfm not efficient one. then saturday got syc also gone. then sunday going out again also gone. then next tuesday also. what am i doing to myself.
omo i am going to suffer the consequences sooner or laterz.
but nowadays i really dont know who to trust. despite understanding and digesting rene brown's words, i still cannot bring myself to make friends with vulnerability even though i want to. there's something stopping me from trust. instead i've learnt to untrust some people. those that i least expected to.
anw i havta brace myself for more emo shtiz coming along. it's exam period and everyone is emo hahaha. ironically i tend to be happier studying. lame. maybe it's the contrast with other people HAHAH. meanwhile, i have to get around to making my new pencil case. got materials liao now i just need idea and time.
cannot wait for jamband pracs and singnstrum pracs to start again lols. but i suspect singnstrum pracs will be nonexistent cos they all lepak one wahahaha.
i need to play tchoukball siaaaa. and movies. i need a movie. and there's something else i need. i need to find out what we need.
and during the past week i realised that i got damn tired easily, and then there were many occasions where i almost couldnt control my mouth, then have to swallow back my words. and i realised why suddenly so different.
cos i'm not pregnant WHOOOOOOO. hahahaha idk why i keep telling myself as though i do it often HAHAHA
laughed at 4:29:00 AM