Tuesday, November 13
Oh Brene Brown was a godsend.
i think a dosage of her per day will keep the psychologist away. and because of her i am consoled to learn that it is normal to say "I think i need a psychologist" so my takeaways from her:
Worthiness(which comes with the ability to embrace vulnerability) leads to confidence
No sense of worthiness aka no ability to embrace vulnerability leads to egoism.
So which one are you? Really reach into your heart and ask yourself: Which one are you?
Are you really pretending to be confident when it is just egoism or are you genuinely proud of yourself? You think that no one really knows what you think, but believe me, it shows.
I'm doing this while the accounting teacher is going through the results of the test. ughh heng i sued this sia. seriously heng. and as usual, i changed all my correct answers into the wrong ones, and overthought the questions. HAHA. ha.
the guys are going to watch ahboys to men but i have to do my ethics essay. ok la but anw the good people are not going also. i am confused, about who i should be with now :/ i thought i could see the good in all people but meanwhile, speaking of movies, I HAVE NOT WATCHED ANY OF MY MOVIES YET. shit the skyfall, and this ahboys to men and wts PERKS OF BEING A WALLFLOWER and now there's pitch perfect omg totally reminds me of pixel perfect. miss that show so much wo de tian ahh.
anw i'm finishing this post at 12.39am cos after accounting ended we went to play basketball and it was dang awesome cos it was raining and we went to the NIE INDOOR AIRCON court. the fact that it was NIE like we werent supposed to be there made it so badass WOO. came back with bruises but it was a good game. hadnt had such a good game in a long long time. so there was xuena and her roomie shiya (i keep calling both of them shenya cos u know it's like a mixture of both of their names) yuanming sebas theodore yurong ruijie leon. good size good game good company :)
meanwhile my ethics essay is still.... i am going to sleep and wake up in the morning to finish it HAHAH
and anw i was thinking if i were to pretend i was a guy and classify all my girl friends into girlfriends or girl-friends......... -fades into the distance-
amelia would be that first love of mine that i always had a special place in my heart for.
cherie would be that girl that i had a one-night stand with because of you-know-what we did.
chewjiarong would be that wife of mine that is always with me for much of my life HAHAHAH
eunice siow would be that ex-girlfriend that i kept on meeting and we became damn good friends even though we were ex-es
mavis would also be the 青梅竹马 wife of mine.
nicole would be that first girl i liked and flirted alot with but never got together with.
ruth would be that girl that i was not 'settled down' enough for, that i didnt meet at the right time, that so much would have happened.
weisin would be that secretly sexually wild girlfriend that i eventually found out about and we became damn good friends
HAHAHAH just saying that all these are like impressionistic to what i'm feeling now and the girls are just people that i randomly thought of or can remember what label i put on. cos i was thinking about it in the shower and could come up with something for everyone of my girl-friends yeah i know i have alot but when i come out of the shower then all POOF gone! like the steam from the hot water that i was using hahah well, i guess what happens in the shower stays in the shower then HAHAHA
mood: tired
status: i have so much to write, so little time, and all i can think about is the ethics essay i have to write in 4 hours time.
laughed at 12:50:00 AM