Monday, August 12
My Guy Best Friend
Today i officially lost my guy best friend. I think i sorta knew it for awhile but only today did i finally admit to myself that i've lost him. Lost him to what i dont know. The future maybe?
Actually i should have seen this coming all along. He shares his problems with me but I cannot bring myself to share my problems with him. And when i actually do, his consolation makes me feel worse... It's just a mismatch of response i guess... I will be his best friend for as long as he needs my listening ear but i need to find my own best guy friend also.
There are somethings that i need to tell a girl and a guy. Dont ask me why. I will just need to tell 2 ppl:a guy and a girl. But it's not his fault. It's mine. Truth to be told i think it's more difficult to be my guy best friend than my boyfriend haha. It's sad cos we've known each other for so long and we know so much about each other already plus he's one of the few guys that have been able to be my friend for a long long time without it being romantic. most of my guy friends just give up on me :( but i always always feel like i'm bothering him if i tell him my problems. And suay suay everytime i need to talk he's not free. But now he has other equally important ppl in his life now and i'm happy for him. Maybe it's time i took the backseat and find myself another guy bestfriend. Idk if it means anything to him but it means alot to me that he doesnt read my blog cos most of what i really feel are here. Ohwell haha
For now though, i'm still perfectly happy with all my girl best friends dont know what i'll do without u guys asking about me all the time. Really touched jipua <3
laughed at 4:52:00 PM